點滴感受

來到加拿大將近四年, 看著照片, 回憶一擁而上,
四年時間, 經歷不少....

初來報到, 父母給我安排寄宿學校, 縱使哥哥和親戚不理我, 我亦得到基本照顧, 在朋友的幫助陪伴下, 渡過一年的寄宿生捱。
在友情/愛情的衝擊下, 18歲的我不懂處理, 情緒失控,
我處於最無助的情況下,
主耶穌不停的幫助我, 派了許多如天使 般的朋友在我身旁照顧我。

然而, 時間飛逝, 照顧我的朋友亦相繼畢業離開, 阿Ling, Iris... 連一直陪伴我的 Joey 好朋友們, 都分散到各地的大學,
初入大學, 我不懂分配時間, 自我管制能力近乎零,
每星期有四個晚上, 都外出跟朋友哇啦哇啦吃飯,
一來浪費金錢, 二來浪費時間,
然後就是每星期 唱K, house party, 活在酒精世界,
隊酒後第二天頭痛得很, 心口發悶, 要在家休息一整天,
結果荒廢學業,
幸而summer school 救了我, 把我的GPA 拉回正常水平。

在大學生捱裡, 認識了Calvin, 一個幫助我許多的人,
但最近他變了, 不提也罷,
然後認識了Kent, 好記得他曾說我脾氣好,
說完這句他就慘了.... heehe...
Yukie, Judy, Vivian, Kathy, 都是照顧我的好姊妹,
他們都畢業了, 只剩Kathy在讀master,
我不敢想像, 一天, 當他們全都離開我後, 我的生活會如何?

2008 的 birthday party, 到場10分鐘後, 我被philo 隊臨=.="
幸好Kent 開車送我回家, charming 非常友善地照顧我,
結果我因喝酒太多, 心口悶得睡不著, 好不辛苦!!

然面, 當朋友一個又一個的畢業離開,
我參觀他們的convocation 很替他們高興,
亦發現自己是時候要真正獨立, 學會照顧他人,
我從來只喜歡跟我同齡, 或年紀較大的朋友在一起,
他們都畢業時, 我感到很"旁"惶無助,
時而認識了 Billy 及Candy, 人很好, 間中會一起吃飯 :)
我是時候埋首新的圈子裡去。

我希望我可以照顧別人, 雖然 Toby 是個失敗的例子=.="
但我會努力的!
還有... 雖然朋友們大多都畢業,
幸而 Bosco 要讀 medical school, 他會陪伴我到畢業的日子XDD

p.s. i know Bosco wouldnt see this, but i still wanna type out my thoughts.. bosco ur really a great frd, u have been treating me so good since i was a "special" freshman(as of i entered school in Jan).
Whenever im upset, ur there to listen to me.
When i need help, ur willing to help me out.
BUT.... i treated u so badly... STUPID ME!
remember how i left u in the street and went away last time in hk? i did such an idiot thing, i feel really bad... and after that, i was surprised that u asked me out to meet up again, ur still willing to treat me as a good frd, and spared time out with me even tho u had only 1 month in hk... i was sooooooo impressed!
that was the first time i ever treated a frd that worst in my life... and u still keep treating me so good till now, deep in my heart, u are my real true heart frd!

o and of coz, Mindy, a person who knows all my secrets, i lub u~ ^_^

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family problems, family issues, academic problems,
FUTURE problems...
why u guys come bombarning me AT THE SAME TIME?
im out of control of my emotions these days...
and all my frds are back in hk?

i trust nobody in canada at the moment, who can i talk to?
i dont wanna waste my frds who are in hk listening to me
again and again since time in hk goes fast, and every second
is extremely important to them,
who can i talk to??